This time of year is one of my favorites, and one of the most difficult at the same time.
Just like most of the rest of the world, I look forward to the possibilities ahead of us. There are so many days and weeks to be better, stronger and closer to who we want to be. Its a great sense of having a "fresh start" and that gives us a sense of "lets go!" ..I love it.
For me, it also is a time of reflection as I get closer to the anniversary of my brothers death, which we will honor for the third time on the 15th of this month. This time of year also causes me to look back on the past years and hold onto those precious memories which bring such peace of heart ..if not a little longing for those sweet moments.
It also is a time when I think alot about how I remember my brother, as well as others who have passed on from our life. I think of how all of this wonderful life could be over so quickly. I think, too, about legacies and what I will be remembered for.
I so long to be thought of now as a person who lives a life of wonderful chaos, who is at peace admidst it all. I want to be remembered as someone who knew what to cherish, and let the small stuff stay in its place. I want to be thought of, and remembered as someone who can looked to for perspective and one who exudes a sense of calm.
I know that I mentioned it before, but I have thought alot about that verse of an old church song, "let our ordered lives confess, the beauty of Your peace."
I want for my life to reflect God's peace. Yes, that is what I want to be remembered for.
For me, I know that that peace reflection starts with my home. It begins with the place where I spend the most of my time, the feeling of security I and my family gets here, the time I spend working toward that, and my perspective on what peace, order and security means for us.
My role in creating peace and order for my family is so important ...and I want to work toward that this year.
Want to do that with me? Good! :)